WHAT THEY SEE BUT WHAT I FEEL

My head aches

From the smile I force outta my brain

Hysterical euphoria... surfacing suppressed headaches

Sometimes I make a smirk

But it's unknown I'm in the dark

I'm hiding my pains and I'm wildly grinning

But inside - I'm groaning

I guess that's what the world wants to see

No one wants to see the scars you bleed

They'd make you hide-lick it and whine about it's resistance to heal

They'd still point fingers of chastisement when it turns repulsive like a stale meal

That's why I smile like a fiend

The next minute -I'm secluded and from existence I'm suspended

I'm prominently inflecting happiness like a raging inferno

But I'm deteriorating in the sadness and darkness of my shadow.

                                                                             -ISRAEL(AAUA CHAPTER)